i got a feeling

today it should be a good day.. well things happened again..
when i say again it means AGAIN...

ya...raining season too... too much rain these days.. make my mood down too..

well, i know that i should not tolerate too much until i feel suffocated... i dun wanna it to happen but when i dun do like this, the more i feel the pain.. they just dun understand what's happening..

people..I HATE SORRY that means nothing.. LEARN and REMEMBER people!!!!!

sorry is not created for fun.. it really bring meaning okay... and be sorry sincerely when you need to be sorry...

shitty day today.. i really felt shit... i dun wanna make myself to turn to someone that i dun wanna be.. i wanna be strong.. but you make me weak..






can i escape?
can i run away from you?
will you say you dun wan me to go?
i am scared i m attached to you too much..
i am scared that i cant run away..
but please dun ignore my effort
please dun ignore my existence
i need love too
i am not that strong...

i'm officially missing you

不要讲到没有做到。。。
我的心没有很坚强
我说真的
不要每次为了让我好过一点而答应我。。
答应我，我就希望你做到
你知道我的为人的。。



i'm officially missing you...

i should be strong..
i should know that not everything will result in what i want it to be
i should know that there are no "suppose" in this world
i should know that everything in this world change

i just want you to know that i will be here and i am still here
i just want you to notice that i am still here
i just want you to see me to care about me..

i hope i belong to you
because you belong to me

cant you see i waited here so long for you to see...
cant you see i am willing to change to us better
cant you see my effort to hold on?

but i will stay and hold on
hold on to my hand...




p/s:shemisseshimmuchmuch

心情日记

等待是件很辛苦的事。。我不喜欢等待。。
因为等待会让心情变得比较差。。所以我会比较准时，我也不喜欢人家等我。。

等人的那位在等待的当时，被等的那位知道吗？
被等的那位知道等待那位的辛苦吗？
被等的那位明白等待的无奈吗？

等待的那位的无奈，的辛酸， 的期望，被等的那位会了解吗？

欺骗。。
为什么要不老实？
为什么不可以坦白？
为什么要说不坦白是想把伤害减到最低？
可是你知道吗？如果事情被揭发后，伤害反而更大。。
你说不想让我知道是不想我担心
但是，这样是代表我不够你信任吗？
你说不想让我知道是因为不想气我
可是你又可想到我知道后会更气。。
我不喜欢你欺骗我，因为这是我的原则
我不想因为你而放弃自我，我想守着我的原则
因为有我自己的原则，才有我

有时候，觉得你不想，也没有要了解我
你不知道我在生气我，我告诉你
可是说了，你有时也还是不明白。。
我真的不懂要怎样了
我很不开心，可是你却想要逃避
我很不开心，可是我却不想你伤心
我很不开心，我却想要你知道

我真的不想闹
我真的不想这样的
我真的很不想。。

journey from MJ to WM

today is not a good day for me because i hafta go for english class just for the 2 hours.. and the time is from 5 - 7.. what a time to have english class.. and this is all a big thanks to our dear college... they are so smart in adjusting our timetable.. WTF.............. ya.. and there goes our lovely friday.. just for that english... haih.. life sucks.. poor student..

ya..back to the topic.. while i was in the lrt going to my college.. i saw few foreigners with their gang of course. if i am not mistaken, one group is from china,shanghai maybe.. another is from thailand bangkok.. so how do i know that, lol.. praise me i am so smart because i observed.. lol..

the foreigners are cute in their way of expressing opinion about malaysia.

for the china group, this is their conversation about malaysia's putra lrt line..

man 1: wa, this lrt has limited seats..
women 1: o...ya.. so limited..
man 1 : i think by doing so they can take more passengers...
then maybe some of them gave opinion but i din hear it.. so..

the second senario

women 2: wa, their stations' name are weird..
men 1 : ya.. i dun understand it
women 1: i think is named by their local area name..
i was like of course they are named by the local area name and what it is so weird? japanese railway and singapore are doing so by naming their stations with local area name and no1 talk about them?? and it is BAHASA MALAYSIA.. is not weird to see BM in MALAYSIA... i wonder how they think

as for the thailand group, they stood too far from me so i can just see their actions..
the two girls are hugging 2 not cute,not nice bear with socks on their bear's leg.. is not nice and not cute.. i thought it was a dog or wat at first.. so scary.. they laughed and laughed and took pictures with those ugly bears.. eww... then you know what, they then stuck their bears into a very small bag and laughed.. i wonder why.. weird foreigners..

i wonder will i act the same as them when i travel overseas???hmm... better not..lol..

timetable is out... the timetable is kinda sucks and kinda okay for me... lol.. contradicting for me again.. well, the best part of this sem's timetable is that fri we are free...yohoo.. i mean for the time bring if the stupid office people are so mercy and leave it unchange for us.. i hope they do..


YOU STUPID OFFICE PEOPLE DON'T MESS WITH MOI TIMETABLE~~~~~~~

i hope they see this...(but if they see this,i might get called to meet the HOS)

ok..let's have a look on the timetable..
as you can see.. the latest time i can go back home is 7 clock.. so ikan lo..gek sei.. i reach home also around 8 something... hell..no... i wan my dinner time la... and you know what,is english class.. omg...

well,still there is a good thing that is Wednesday which is the movie day i can go back early..so is kinda relief for that..

but this sem is going to be tougher i think... lol.. cz the so called "good" lecturer is teaching us.. i heard the sub is an elective one.. so guys.. what are you still thinking?? DON'T CHOOSE HERS.... lol... o my.. did i just said that?? YES... CHOOSE ANOTHER elective...lol... for your convenience, i even i highlight her timing in my timetable.. so that you can notice her sub...

ya...i hope we can register when the registration is open..lol.. we dont wanna get stuck in the middle of the ocean and watching her lecturing and we are sleeping..

this 2nd should be a good sem for me.. i promise myself that i will attend KAK's lecture... cause of some of the kesian reason la... must support him must bong chan him de... lol..

so..everybody most your body and let's go college together....~~~~~

PEACE...

genting

am back from genting..yohoo....

was the coldest day i had ever experience... reached top of the hill around 10... happy happy... finally my holiday can end with a good trip.. shuang ness...lol...

went to first world to take check in and we got the num "0134", the receptionist said the check in counter will only open at 12 noon so, we left everything at the luggage counter went for all park lu...

it was a very very misty day and it was freaking cold.. anzhu worried that not every ride can be played but thank god... most of the rides that we wanted to play is on...yeah...

we got in and played almost everything..except for the solero shot thingie and the roller coaster thing and not to forget the dizzy turning cup thing..hate that..

after all this while of hoping and anticipating on the cycling boat thingie, i finally know that i was not fun at all. for the cycling boat ( or watever you called it,cz i forget the name), is tiring and it was so boring... just cycle cycle and cycle.. but the most boringness thing was the bumper boat beside it. it was totally a disaster.. anzhu is overweight to ride it and i hafta play it all alone..
it operates with motor and you just ned to ride it and bump into people's boat... it last for freaking 5 mins... i was totally cold and freezing and the left hander to start the engine thingie was vibrating too much for me..after that freaking 5 mins, my hand were numb..lol..

then, headed to the sg rejang ride that cause me flu and cough for the whole day until today... =_=... maybe it had been a long time i didn't went into theme park,i am scared of height now..lol... it freak us out when the boat was sliding down...WTFF.......and we got all wet and the wonderful cold wind was blowing us with no mercy... and anzhu told me this should be the weather of genting...=_=..

besides all of this theme park thing, we had funs walking around and playing around.... we ate alot..i mean really alot.. lol... from vietname house to coffee terrace to hainamese restaurant to good friend restaurant...ate like hell...lol.. the food was ok for us...

and yeah the other day was not too cold and reached kl around 330...good for me... for having headache.. am feeling good for the trip la..hope to have it another time..